Holidays can be sad for some- Open Discussion III

Posts: 3854 · Posted: 02.12.2012, 14:15

OUR (YEAR #3) TRADITIONAL HOLIDAY THREAD: OPEN DISCUSSION

IT IS NOT TO JUDGE, BUT FOR SUPPORT, AND TO LISTEN.

THIS TIME OF YEAR, IS ESPECIALLY HARD FOR MANY PEOPLE.
AND FEELINGS OF SADNESS CAN TURN INTO DESPAIR......

HOWEVER, TALKING HELPS AND SOMETIMES, WE FORGET THAT.

I AM ASKING............ "DO YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT?"

FOR ME....
MY FAMILY IS WHO I CHOOSE TO LOVE, AND YOU ARE MY FAMILY.

CRUSHERS ARE THEE BEST AT:
LIFTING YOU UP, SHOWING THEY CARE, LISTENING AND LOVING OR OFFERING PRAYER.......

Love, Patti

Posts: 822 · Posted: 02.12.2012, 19:18

You are so awesome, Patti. I lost my sister 20 years ago to leukemia and holidays are still a little bittersweet. When my niece was born, it got better, but this is always the time of year that I think about her and what she would be like now had she lived. She was only 23 when she died and fearlessly full of life until she got sick at 21. It helps a lot to talk about it and get a good cry in. I think that we hold in tears and that just makes it harder. Anyways, I love you guys...I know there is always love and support here and I am grateful for it.

Posts: 3854 · Posted: 03.12.2012, 00:11

Wow, so-close-to-my-heart Anne, I immediately had tears for your pain and loss, my friend.
I can only ever be so very ashamed, regardless of the "why", for how I treat my sister at times, remembering when we were younger, and different.

And maybe I am crazy, but I see an image, of your sister, sitting on your shoulder, not so much protecting you, but more like she is proud to be called your sister. Who wouldn't be.

Guilt is a heavy burden, talking the only way to lighten that load, but so hard to do.
I think, because you shared something so honest, we are blessed too.

Thank You so much for trusting us lady.
Love ya Anne, Big Hugs Always

Posts: 822 · Posted: 03.12.2012, 15:46

Thank you Patti. Your words mean so much to me. I think she is with me too. Smile

Sisters are a blessing in our lives even when they make us crazy!! I am so grateful for my surviving younger sister (even though we have definitely had some issues) we understand each other in a way other people can't because of our shared upbringing and experiences.

It is really hard for me to imagine you not getting along with anyone, there must be reasons, but you are such an amazing person! Whatever it is that makes you ashamed, let it go. I felt like that too and it just messed me all up. Sisters fight like nobody else can. But you will always be sisters.

I think you are wonderful.

Posts: 3854 · Posted: 04.12.2012, 01:55

Awwwww, thank YOU Anne- I think you are wonderful too. Smile

Posts: 3854 · Posted: 19.12.2012, 20:44

Just a reminder to anyone who would like to post anything here.
Please do it, please.
Don't regret what you did not say here. Lots of

to go around at Poker Crush.

Posts: 172 · Posted: 20.12.2012, 01:38

I cant type now because I cant see the keyboard, but you had me at hello Crying or Very Sad

,lol, but the waterworks started to flood after anne's post. (I hope this doesnt come out the wrong way, i have trouble extracting from my brain the words i know to use.) I felt bad, I felt bad for anne, but mostly because i'm feeling my loss. Same goes, this time of year sucks ass for me and this year is right up there. This is going to take forever, i'll come back after poker and continue, id start again but my brain is tired. i know what I am going to do tho, im going to post my fb post from the other day -that is also a major contributor in why im , lets see, depressed, sad, tiredd, numb, depressed, sad , did i sat depressed and sad?

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Carrie Clough-Paulson shared a link.
December 15
♥♥♥ I really need the people in my life to take 19 minutes of their day to watch this video. I get so frustrated trying to explain myself all the time, or by always feeling the need to validate myself. Communication is most important in any relationship and so I am using this video as my tool to communicate with you. It is for the most part my story with the help of someone elses words. I want to be able to- rather I need to be able to have some of this lifted off my shoulders and to quit worrying about trying to get my point across so I can finally exhale, and therefore be less stressed. I wont tell you how long i took with this message,lmao, but I almost wish I had refreshed my memory and watched this video BEFORE doing so, because so much is almost word for word (least the ones in my head lol) and i would have saved lots of time. So please, this isnt just for me but there are many people that go though this daily and this will help you to be more understanding...

ts a vicious circle, I get frazzled that I cant think of something which causes me to lose track even further lol.. Do NOT mistake this for 'crazy' 'stupid' or 'delusional' .. I am still Carrie, my smarts are still intact as well as my gift for being able to smell bullshit a mile away, but ...... this video will explain ♥ ♥♥

Hold That Thought- Cognition And MS

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I cant tell you how many 'friends' comment on my page, or share posts off my page, but mostly everything is always commented on either on my page or in pm or phone. Lets just say im not naive. Ha! It was as though this post had major cooties. I posted the few comments that were below it.

I dont know, this is only one of the many drops in the bucket, not even the main reason things suck, but its where im starting. I'll come back later, need a break
(changed names to MY BFF and FRIEND #1)

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MY BFF ok watched it, but i already knew that about ya... and still love ya no matter what
December 15 at 9:47pm Â· Unlike Â· 1

Carrie Clough-Paulson Thanks MY BFF Since no one bothered to read except you, im not going to worry about what anyone thinks or why they think it because im done feeling like an idiot. I am shocked that my brain hasnt turned to mush from the stress of k.perry. ouy... lol.. Its embarrassing because my train of thought hits a *please do not swear* cow and I cant even hold a conversation when shes around,lol... well hell, neither could anyone probably.. kp on the dl so sh lmao I you too Pam!
Yesterday at 12:49am Â· Edited Â· Like

FRIEND #1 This happens to me and a lot of people normally! Lol that's life, and it's a bitch, u shouldn't care what other people think about u! Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind. I've known u all my life and u will always be the same old Carrie to me...I love u!!!
Sunday at 12:36pm via mobile Â· Unlike Â· 1

Carrie Clough-Paulson Its not the same FRIEND #1, it really isnt
Monday at 9:44pm Â· Like

FRIEND #1 Well u were on meds, did they help at all?
Monday at 11:34pm via mobile Â· Unlike Â· 1

Carrie Clough-Paulson I really couldnt say because the weekly injections I took are to try and slow the progression,not to treat the symptoms. You know the injections made me sicker than a dog and by the time I felt better I had to do it again. I should probably start them up again BTW.. I you too!!
Yesterday at 12:47am Â· Edited Â· Like

Carrie Clough-Paulson Oh Well, Hells Bells and cocklechells! lol
Yesterday at 12:46am Â· Like

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BAH HUMBUG!!!!

Posts: 3854 · Posted: 20.12.2012, 04:08

((((Carrie)))) I am sorry that you are struggling, living with MS. My heart goes out to you, at your hurt feelings, because people are uncomfortable with what they do not understand.
It's a shame!!
If we slowed down just a little, (why are we all in such a hurry, we all end up the same place I guarantee you) LOL
and paid attention, you'd get the support you so deserve!!!

I cannot imagine how hard it must be for you, to not be able to FIND WORDS to say what you are trying to say, or try to remember something you KNOW you knew....
I can only tell you I am thankful that you chose us (me) to share these personal things with, and that your trust is a blessing to us.

MOST IMPORTANTLY, YOU HAVE DEFINATELY COMMUNICATED ALL THIS WITH SUCCESS, and not on mostly deaf ears!

THANK YOU, here are some BIG CRUSH HUGS to fill your HEART with during the holidays,

You are an important part of the Crush Family!

Love Patti and ALL the Poker Crushers as well!

Posts: 463 · Posted: 26.12.2012, 05:04

i 2 have nothing but bad news at this time of the yr. its so depressing. i just quite celebrating all together. i just put a little prelit tree up , only because my grand daughters wated me to have a tree. sofor the last 7 or 8 yrs. it goes up.otherwise i dont ceebrate it, ps. rog loves the little tree. best wishes for all of yous
ty josie46

Posts: 3854 · Posted: 26.12.2012, 16:20

((((JOSIE))))

I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR SADNESS DURING THIS TIME OF YEAR. I HOPE YOU KNOW WE ALL
THINK THE WORLD OF YOU AND ARE THANKFUL YOU ARE PART OF OUR CRUSHER FAMILY!!

LOVE, PATTI

Posts: 463 · Posted: 26.12.2012, 17:02

ty patti, but as long as the family is here im good , despite it all. i feel for the familys of Sandy Storm and Sandy Hook it was senselessand the fire fighters in NY. thell all be in my prayers, ty love josie

Posts: 2954 · Posted: 28.12.2012, 23:16

stupid spammer and just think that is somebodies kid...lol

carrie I would of watched your video if we were friends on fb. friend me.
sometimes I read stuff and don't comment or some times I miss it cause people posting like 20 things at one time. so maybe some of your friends didn't see your post or know what to say. like me right now. I just want to give you a BIG hug (((((((((((((((((((((( carrie ))))))))))))))))))))))

Posts: 3854 · Posted: 29.12.2012, 03:18

shirlsplay wrote: › stupid spammer and just think that is somebodies kid...lol

Wish we could BLOCK them ALL the time! Ugh!!
Sorry I had not caught it earlier sweets. Embarassed

Posts: 1704 · Posted: 30.12.2012, 21:53

thought id comment since i havent yet, anyway not here to talk about me as anyone who knows me knows i have many things in my life that get me down and you could say im far from happy in life through many things but the end of the day i carry on and know im lucky compared to many, anyway read the posts and i feel for the people that are suffering at this time of year, especially touched by your post carrie, i can only imagine how you are feeling and its sad the way some people react to things that affect others, anyway id have watched your video if i could have, i know it must be terrible suffering from ms and the constant tiredness, anyway think if you just read pattis reply it would some up what im thinking but she has put it into words better than i ever could, thoughts are with you and take care